Month: March 2017

A Guide to Planning your Goals

When we talk about well formed outcomes, it is really just another phrase for the goals we want to achieve. It’s a bit like setting an agenda for a business meeting.

The reason for doing this preparation and setting out your goals in advance of your meeting or phone call, are to give you time to breathe. Get all your thoughts down on paper, streamline them and attend with a clear head. It won’t take away your feelings or emotions and I can’t promise you won’t still cry but you will get what you need out of the meeting and that will be a positive outcome. By knowing what you want and what you need to discuss it will provide you with a calm empowered feeling.

During the workshop, we talked about getting into a good frame of mind/resourceful state. If the thought of doing this goal exercise makes you feel stressed, then using that technique before you proceed could really help.

In order to define your goals, it is a good idea to work through each one of the following points.

  1. What do I want? State it POSITIVELY. Choose 3 goals, more if you have them.

It is very easy to think about what we don’t want or what we think we can’t achieve. It used to be very easy for me to say “I don’t want to come away from this meeting with the Neurologist, without having understood x,y &z.” I decided, although just words, I would change my internal dialogue to “I want to come away from this meeting with the Neurologist having understood x,y & Z.” There is a subtle difference. The difference is the positive framing and that I have now (without probably realising it) made a commitment to myself. I will only leave the meeting when I have the information I need.

2.   As yourself, What do I need to achieve these goals?

You might not know the answers but give it some thought. It helps you be prepared and it might mean you need to do some research before the meeting. It could be anything from, buy in from the therapist, a case study to put forward as leverage, evidence or confirmation of available budget.

3.   What is REALISTIC to achieve at this meeting?

Find out who you are meeting with. It is ok to ask the receptionist or their colleague what the persons job title is and what their responsibilities are. Don’t forget, they all know what your position is. Parent of the child you are there to discuss and that child’s EXPERT. (What they don’t yet realise is that you are also a Velvet Bulldozer.)

If you are meeting with the head of department, you are are more likely to receive a definite answer or the information you need. If you are meeting with the junior, you most likely won’t. It might therefore be more realistic to ensure that you have been heard, notes have been taken and a date has been agreed for when you will receive an answer. Agree the next step. If you are not meeting the decision maker, always ask who that is.

You can’t fail at this. There really is no such thing as failure when you are trying your best. Every small step is a step in the right direction. Don’t doubt yourself. In my mind, the only time we can fail is when we take no action at all.

A couple of brilliant points that were shared in the workshops for assisting with these meetings were:

Taking a friend or relative with you. Perhaps someone who is impartial. It isn’t always easy to remember everything or write everything down. Another pair of eyes and ears can be really beneficial.

If you do find it a challenge to recall everything and you perhaps you don’t have a buddy to take with you, you could record the meeting. Tell the people you are seeing that you need to do this and the reasons why and there should be no reason why it wouldn’t be allowed.

You’ve got this!




The Velvets

My first two How to be a Velvet Bulldozer workshops, in conjunction with Entrust Care Partnership, have been great. I have met some truly incredible parents and learnt a lot from them too.

Lynne and I received fantastic and positive feedback from the sessions. It has cemented it in my mind that the topics we discussed, which have always been useful to me are also useful for others. Thank you all for your support. Here is some of the feedback.


“Very empowering, more please”

“Lovely relaxed environment and knowledgeable speaker”

“Calm approach, not rushed, worthwhile”

“Thank you so much Aimee and Lynne. Well presented details spoken confidently. There is definitely a gap in the market for supporting parents of children with disabilities.”

“Great session, want more”

“Really helpful, feeling more confident”

“Thank you to Entrust for all the support you offer”

It was such a comfortable and supportive atmosphere where people felt able to share  their thoughts and feelings openly. I think we just needed more time to talk and share.

Anyone who attends one of our workshops or works with me directly, perhaps 1;1, is invited to join our ‘secret’ group The Velvets. It’s a safe and confidential space to share our successes, talk through our challenges and offer support and advice to each other plus I will be sharing more tips along the way.

The goal of the workshops and our group is to share tools and techniques across the board with all parents and carers of children with special needs and disabilities to empower them along this path.

Do get in touch if you are interested in learning and talking more about how to manage your emotions and get into a positive (state) frame of mind, how to plan goals for meetings, why it is important to take care of yourself and the impact of not doing so. Acceptance, letting go and deciding which areas to focus or not. Did you know, it is ok to choose NOT to take on some of the challenges presented to us. You can choose to throw that report in the bin. You really can.

As always, a big shout out to Sandy Rows brilliant book, Surviving the Special Educational Needs System – How to be a Velvet Bulldozer, for the inspiration for the workshop title. Everyone should own a copy.

No More Floor Campaign

Francesca Anker and Emily Naismith are two ladies on a mission.

The mission is to raise money to have a Changing Places facility installed in the Priors Shopping Centre in Leamington Spa. Raising money for a toilet? You would think there were enough toilets around wouldn’t you. Well, there are, just not for children like Francesca’s, Emily’s or mine and not for adults with special needs and disabilities either.


The age old story for our families is either that you don’t go out, you cut the outing short, your child has to remain in their own faeces until you do get home, or you lay your child or the adult you are caring for a on a filthy floor. The same floor most people wouldn’t dare to put their handbag down on. Often covered in mud, urine and occasionally faeces.

I know that I wouldn’t voluntarily lay down in a public toilet. I don’t think I have ever, even as a teenager, been drunk enough to think that was a good idea. Therefore, I’m certainly not going to lay Freddie down in there.

Our families need a larger area, a changing bench, preferably one that can be automatically raised and lowered, a hoist, clean and hygienic surroundings. The usual disabled toilets you see are often in the same filthy state and are really only compatible to those who can independently lift themselves from their wheelchair or with some assistance. Not everyone lives with that type of disability.

All we want is dignity for our children, the ability to enjoy going out with friends and family without worry and the equipment that means we as parents and carers won’t have back injury after back injury lifting those we care for. Is it really too much to ask for?  Can you imagine if the rest of the population had to wait until they got home to use the toilet? What no public convenience I hear you cry?

The reality is that all it takes, is roughly the size of a car parking space. You can’t believe that in every town and city we haven’t got that much space to spare? Vaila Morrison, Blogger at The Inclusive Home (BAPS SEND BLOG AWARDS Finalist 2017) is working hard on this campaign too. Vaila is an Architect and mother. Passionate about sustainable and inclusive design. You can read more about her campaign here.

Please, please support this brilliant cause in any way you can. You can follow the No More Floor Campaign on their Facebook page or on their website No More Floor Campaign and you can also read about the Changing Places campaign here.

No More Floor are running a Spring Bonanza to raise money for the facilities needed. It is at Lillington Primary School on April 2nd between 12pm-4pm. It is just £1 per adult and free for children. It sounds like it will be a great fun day out. Please go along and support them.


It’s a Miracle! Freddie is taking his first steps

Today is a happy anniversary in our house. On this day in 2014, Freddie took his very first and very wobbly unaided steps. He was 2 years, 9 months and 20 days old.

I remember when and where all of my children took their first steps and each time was so exciting but this was a true miracle. We had been advised at one time that he may never walk at all. Our elation and emotion was indescribable.

Ollie had taken Freddie upstairs to start getting ready for bed. Next thing, I hear is him shouting me to come quickly. Freddie was taking his first step on the landing. He had literally no balance but he had done it. Tears pouring down my face and laughter coming from us all. Freddie was so excited and laughing too. The more we cheered, the more he tried to do it. This was the beginning of some form of independence for him.


Freddie learning to walk fully independently took quite a few months, close to a year, made especially hard by his low muscle tone and lack of balance. However, with intense Physio, Hippotherapy, Rebound Therapy, the Snowdrop Program, the aid of a Kay Walker and some specialist support shoes, he was well on his way.


He did also have to learn to get up on his feet from the floor, negotiate obstacles and work on his perception of depth. Due to the small growth size of his Cerebellum he has to work really hard everyday on Proprioception and his Vestibular System. It causes him to be pretty wobbly and loose balance often. It possibly also accounts for his difficulties with speech. Learning and mastering is ongoing. We are currently working on getting up and down steps and ascending the stairs. I would love him to be walking up rather than climbing but he is proving his independence which is the main thing.

This year, pushing along to his sixth birthday, he has been attempting to run, which is fantastic. I don’t think we are going to have the next Usain Bolt on our hands but he is doing it and it makes him really happy. He still gets very tired, so we take a buggy with us when we are out. He can also be a danger to himself, not following instructions and refusing to hold your hand at times. We have to be extremely vigilant. Freddie would simply just step into the road (as he did at the weekend, just started running and frightened me half to death) no danger awareness or comprehension of road safety. So, as long as we stay safe with him and we don’t push him too far, we encourage this physical independence as much as we possibly can.

Never give up on your hopes for your children. We firmly believe Freddie can achieve anything and reach his potential with the right determination, love and support. He amazes us each and every day.

The Velvet Bulldozer wins again

I’m sat with a celebratory cup of tea and a Twirl (it’s a little early for Gin), rejoicing in Velvet Bulldozing my way into getting the provision I wanted for Freddie’s speech and language sessions at school.


Last time I met with his SALT, I was informed that she thought as he was ‘doing ok’ he didn’t require the provision we had agreed on before school started last year. To say I was disappointed is an understatement. The thought of having to go in again and fight again for it was really frustrating. However, his SALT at the time was retiring so I decided we could all start a fresh. Every cloud and all that. I contacted the Head of Speech and Language for SN schools, we had met before, and expressed my desire for a meeting with the new team. I shared how I felt about the current situation and what I wanted to see happen. My well formed outcomes.


The new SALT staff are very nice, a little overwhelmed with their caseload but with a caring and positive attitude. Things I knew I had in my favour were that I had an existing relationship with the Head of SALT and I like her very much. She is professional and organised, she listens and always confirms the agreed actions. She also isn’t put off my my direct nature. Phew. I went in prepared with notes and because I had set out what I wanted ahead of time, they weren’t going be surprised or unable to make a decision, positive or negative,  at the time of the meeting.


I do have high hopes for this fresh start with a new team. I might have gone one step too far at the end and frightened the Senior SLT when I made clear (velvety clear) that I really just wanted his school team to be working together with his teachers and me and championing him every step of the way. Ensuring he reaches his potential. Anyone who isn’t on board to be his champion, probably isn’t going to work. Although a little twitchy they were all in agreement and know where I stand. Overall it was a good, positive meeting, run on friendly but professional terms. Most importantly I have hopefully got a good base for a strong working relationship and I got what I wanted for my boy. The next task is going to be an update for his new ECHP.

I know it can be emotionally and physically draining but you can all do it. Sometimes the system isn’t set up well enough to support us or our children but we all have it within us to get as much as we can. Some of you are true Superhero’s and get more than is ever thought possible.

Looking forward to our next How to be a Velvet Bulldozer workshop being hosted by Entrust Care Partnership on Thursday 23rd March in Leamington Spa.


(Credit to Sandy Row’s book, Surviving the Special Educational Needs System, How to be a Velvet Bulldozer for the workshop name inspiration)

The only solution is Gin

The only solution is Gin. I’m going to have to break into a new bottle right this second.

50% of the time, getting all three to bed on my own is fine. Yes they all go bonkers and have a mad hour but it’s usually ok. Last night was one of those such nights. Tonight was the other 50%. The nightmare 50%. One wanted a bath and the other two wanted a shower. Thats fine because now that we have a new shower, it’s so much easier for me to wash Freddie this way, so this would be my preferred option anyway. The tiny one is in the bath, I’m cleaning Freddie’s teeth. I hear “Uh Oh” and the bath is now completely empty with one naked toddler sitting in it shouting ‘more more’. He isn’t happy when he has to get out. Ok, I think, no problem. The other two wanted a shower anyway. Whilst getting the tiny one dressed, in comes my girly, screaming as if she has lost a limb. Almost but not quite. Playing with Freddie (how many times have I said ‘DONT play with the doors) she is running away and Freddie goes to slam the door and traps her toe underneath it. To be fair, I would probably – ok definitely – have been screaming too if that was me. Skin peeling off, blood and tears everywhere.

Once she had calmed down, a normal breath rate had resumed and I had convinced her we didn’t need to dial 999, we talked about it. She was convinced Freddie had tried to rip her toe off on purpose. Mean time, the tiny one comes running out of Bella and Freddie’s room wearing a pair of Bella’s knickers over his nappy and vest. I wish I’d had a camera. Very difficult to have a serious conversation with one upset child whilst wanting to laugh at another. Multi tasking is the only way.

Trying to help a four year old understand why her older brother doesn’t always understand the implications of his actions is tricky. I’m really trying not to weigh her down with too much information about his learning disability but it is becoming more and more apparent these conversations need to happen. We really want her to just see him as her brother Freddie, not her brother Freddie who has special needs. However, helping her to understand why he needs more help than her in certain ways is hopefully a positive step forward. Little by little. At the end, she said to me ‘I guess it’s ok, his brain doesn’t work in the same way as mine does it?’ Broke my heart a little for a number of reasons but as least I knew she sort of got it. I told her that like all of us, me included, he was still learning and sometimes he finds it hard to understand and process things. I think she still thought maybe he did it on purpose mind you. She won’t know what has hit her when Jago really starts pushing the boundaries with her.

My poor neighbours. During the hour of 6pm-7pm they would have heard blood curdling screams, me shouting like a fish wife and general pandemonium.

I hope everyone’s bedtime hour went more smoothly than ours. Cheers. Bring on the double.

Singing Happy Birthday

Singing Happy Birthday.
It’s the traditional thing to have sung to you on your birthday but this year it was extra special for me. My daughter sang it beautifully but to add to that, with some help and encouragement from his Daddy, Freddie sang it to me also. It took him quite a while but he did it and I loved it. Crying with happiness. What a brilliant birthday gift.

I had a really great night away to celebrate my birthday with friends and this was the view from our hotel. The amazing Tower Bridge.

Reclaiming Time and Space

Time is so precious.

Time with our children, time to see friends and family, time to work, time to fit in the appointments and therapies for my child, time to clean and wash clothes, time to go out and enjoy myself, time to sleep. Fitting everything in is a real skill and one that can be somewhat overwhelming at times. I have lists coming out of my ears and each day I’m barely scratching the surface. I prioritise the most important things, especially if they can be done quickly. I do however have a growing To Do list of things I would really like to do or get done for me. These things are generally getting further and further down the list no matter how organised I am.

As the New Year came and went I felt as if i was drowning under the weight of the contents of our house. Plastic multicoloured toys, clothes and general stuff. Half of which we don’t need or use. With not enough hours in the day and my increasing level of tiredness, I decided to take action. Under normal circumstances, I would have spent an hour or so in a vague attempt to de-clutter the house. I would have become distracted and thought about each item way too much and probably not got very far.  Knowing myself fairly well and knowing this wasn’t going to cut it, I decided to bring in the expert. I needed focus and a gentle kick up the bottom to get me moving and make a real impact.

Yesterday morning at 9am sharp, Ruth arrived at my house. Ruth is The Time Fairy. Anything you need help with to give you time, she is your lady, your own personal PA. De-cluttering, help with To Do lists, weekly or one off assistance. You need it, she can do it.

At first, I questioned my own need for The Time Fairy, surely I can just get these tasks done by myself? I could do but it might not happen for another 5 years and the job wouldn’t be complete. I needed help and focus. Click here to read Ruths Blog on why we should de-clutter. For three full hours we de-cluttered my bedroom. How bad can it be you ask? Well, it was 7 bin bags to charity, 2 bin bags of recycling and one bin bag in the actual bin. All just my stuff, clothes I haven’t worn for 10 years, shoes I have no need or desire for. I couldn’t believe it. My room is now feeling very Fung Shui. We had a little time at the end so between us, we sorted out the clothes of my two youngest children. Another bag to charity and one to recycling. I think I needed Ruth in my life a long time ago.

Before                  After            Charity/recycle  

I’m very used to thinking of my children first when it comes to spending money but sometimes you just have to put yourself first. For me, clearing my house helps to give me a clear head and reduce one the stress elements in my life. I’ll be booking Ruth again this year I’m sure. If I could I would have her every week but the reality is, a bit of support once and a while is more doable for me. Getting time for yourself can come in many different guises so find out what would help you the most and take action to make it happen. We all need looking after as much as our children do.